Hormones

With 3 times the amount of estrogen, and 300mg of progesterone every day, I'm not sure how to react to anything.

And with a not-so-great transfer of blastocysts yesterday, I'm even more unsure.

Random things make me want to cry. I would prefer to sit on my couch under a blanket.

I try a thousand times a day to not think about how yesterday went.
To not think about when we can take a pregnancy test.
To not count the days when we can take the test.
To not think that every thing I'm doing is going to hinder the implantation process.
To not think about how I will react to a negative test.
To not think about how I will react to a positive test.
To not think how I will inform our family and friends who know what we've been going through about the result of the test, positive or negative.

A thousand times a day I'm not thinking about "it". But "it" won't leave me alone...at least not for another 2 weeks.

Or 14 days.

Or 336 hours.

But who's counting?